Death & the Equinox’s gifts
The Fountain Tarot 🍂
Last week we welcomed autumn, yay!
I was blessed to have a seat in a women’s circle for much-needed body and soul nourishment, including a gorgeous sound bath and guided breath work. I find that the fall equinox always arrives bearing great gifts. The most beautiful for me—and most challenging—is the reminder to surrender.
Death makes room for rebirth, yet remains an area where our society doesn’t support us properly. It’s the scary, dark, and morbid part of all living things, right? But there is so much more depth and beauty than that. It is the closing of a cycle, the releasing of what doesn’t serve us, and the reminder that life is precious.
It’s acceptance. Release. Surrender. Letting go.
It’s recognizing that holding tight to things just poisons our own well…the cycle waits for no one, and doesn’t listen to you if you’re not ready.
Last week, I said a very sad—yet perfect in its own way—goodbye to a soul I loved. Sitting with this grief in circle, I was reminded of the perfection a completed cycle carries with it. That energy is balanced and quiet, making room for new growth and more love.
This week’s reading honors end-of-life cycles and the tremendous gifts we receive when we lean into them.
xo,
Natalie
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One
Six of Swords
You are emerging—or about to—from a tumultuous interaction. This is likely with a person or entity outside of the Self. Family, friends, the news, work, it doesn’t matter.
As the equinox reminds us, this is a time to surrender. Forgive. Release and start anew.
However, the road may be bumpy at first.
Your work as you make room for new growth is to not let the past define you. We all mess up, and we all learn. Looking back it is easy to wish things had gone a different way, but the way they went is the way they went.
There is no energy or momentum gained from overthinking the past. You have the ability to forge a new path, which is exciting! Embrace your profound power as a creator on this planet and know you are enough.
Two
Two of Coins, reversed
When the Two of Coins is reversed, this suggests imbalance with the external elements of your life, so much so, that your internal health and wellness suffer.
Think for a moment (because the answer will likely pop into your head immediately): Where in your life do you feel out of balance?
Often, there are circumstances that can’t be controlled like strange energy at work or the needs of people who depend on you or an illness in the family or accident, etc.
What CAN be controlled is the micro decision you make next. This doesn’t mean shitty stuff doesn’t happen if you have your micro-decisions “under control.” But it is a way to move forward from a challenging place without overwhelming yourself.
Our lives in the macro are defined by years and seasons. But broken down far enough, we are where we are due to thousands of tiny micro decisions from our food to mindset, our choices with words, and our bodies.
What is one micro decision you can choose to tip your scales towards balance?
It might be intentionally sending a thoughtful text to someone, or skipping the third glass of wine, or moving your body for five minutes or acknowledging you’ve experienced a trauma.
Most things are out of our immediate control but we can make space day by day for balance within the container we find ourselves.
Three
Five of Swords
Are you lashing out or the subject of someone’s outbursts?
This is a painful space to navigate, but also a powerful reminder—no matter which side you think you’re on—to pick your battles.
Are you digging in a trying to “win” something at the expense of someone else’s feelings? Or perhaps thinking you’ll feel better if someone else suffers?
Maybe this is someone’s mentality as they lash out at you. No matter. Both sides of this coin call for discernment.
Pause. Breathe.
If the pain has been inflicted on you, sit with the concept that it isn’t your burden to worry about and, likely, there is deep pain being processed by your perpetrator. If you can, try a loving kindness meditation (some great ones on Insight Timer). These are magic.
If you’re the one lashing out, why? What might be gained from acceptance or forgiveness? Perhaps you can find space to begin healing rather than seething.
One step at a time.
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